I would tell you how empty it was, how five people were scattered around the hole in the ground, but only two really cared, but I can't.
I would tell you how long it took me to get there, how tears stung my darkened eyes as my black heels sunk into the softened dirt. And I would tell you about the sadness I saw in everyone's eyes that day, but I can't.
I would tell you how I missed him, how he was so kind, how he was always there for me, how he didn't deserve what came to him, but I cant.
I would tell you how much it rained, or what day it was, or how small the gravestone had been, but I can't.
Because he was not kind, he was never there, there was no sadness, and I don't know if he deserved it. Maybe he did, maybe all the pain he caused finally caught up to him.
Because I didn't count how many people were there, I didn't wear black heels, and I don't know what day it was. I didn't go. I didn't see the headstone, or how they cried. How they shed tears for their tormentor because now, they had missed him.
I would tell you I didn't want to go, but I can't. I would tell you that I had a choice, but I didn't.
I just stayed home, staring at the ceiling while they held an empty funeral.