It hurts so much to push you away. I've known you my whole life and until today, I never even realized how much you hurt me. I've seen evidence of it right in front of me a thousand times over, I just didn't want to believe it. But I need to take care of myself now. After 20 years, I'm just seeing that, and I can't believe I never saw it before; you don't really love me. You love what I can do for you.