today i felt like i was drowning for the first time
i always thought I’ve felt like this before
but i really feel it now
i feel like i’m at the bottom of the ocean
with cinderblocks tided to my ankles
i feel
i feel everything
i’m full of emotions from today, yesterday and the day before
how do i release without forgetting
why don’t i want to forget at all?
today i feel like i am drowning
and everyone is watching and they don’t know
when i feel overwhelming emotions i just wait for them to go away
for them to silence
i never ask them to leave
i usually just pray
i’m not really religious but i just hope someones listening who wants to take away my pain
i don’t know the source of it
i wonder if tomorrow ill float