So boys always say they're more sensitive they get hurt worse down there That the pain the rush in their nervous system is so much greater
a little boy at my daycare kicks my ****** and I think about how boys say that it hurts worse how they're more sensitive to the touch and I think how maybe they're just not used to the touch
You see we've been wrestling these 4 boys 1 girl and myself they're all four years old and they don't know anything about personal space or appropriateness and you know any time i'm touched on my ****** those squirming knees and feet and elbows and wrists that seem way too close to hands I acknowledge it in my head at least, I think I do or... maybe I don't because we've been wrestling for a while now and I know they've touched it more than once but that's all I can seem to count and I'm starting to think maybe I don't notice it because maybe it's not abnormal for me for girls for women maybe it's because we're supposed to have children climb out of our vaginas and so accidental elbows and knobby knees don't set off any alarms maybe it's that maternal instinct that allows me to have a random child I'm paid to take care of laying in between my legs with them sprawled open
Because I've taken more offense And drawn more pain from Sharp bones and pinching hinges on my ******* and my stomach than I have in my crotch
I can't help but think I could possibly be used to it like greedy hands and heads and elbows just seem to find their way into that space more often than I thought and maybe it just feels normal
Maybe it's a force of habit for me to be zoned out thinking of something else my lunch or my job and casually notice activity in my ****** look down and see a man a child it seems when an activity takes place in between my legs I might get distracted I might zone out maybe I block it out but I definitely don't pay attention and I think that's a dangerous line for myself and for the children
For the children if I'm unafflicted by their grasping hands then I'm not taking the opportunity to teach them it is not okay to touch me there to touch a woman there to touch another person there and in consequently am teaching them that it is okay to touch me there to touch a woman there to touch another person there and I don't want to raise one more generation of children behaving like that
Maybe that's how all these generations of adults behaving like children behaving like that came to be women, so tired they forget to notice the little things they forget people aren't supposed to touch them there they're just so used to it they're just so used to the violation it becomes numbing like a knee or hand to the ****** is nothing more than a small blow to the thigh or the stomach or any other insignificant piece a flesh