Do not call your friends hastily so tired
with a fever from hell
on the dark convoluted pits of it, do not dwell!
Do not start throwing stuff all over the room
Do not start shaking on the floor
Do not protect you from pain
in the form of self-inflicted wounds
Run away from those ways! They will only lead you astray

And I saw it clear, in tears
where it all boiled down to - this
you are making this big
(I am at a loss with words with it)
There was something I could do...

Take things in a new manner
Whatever is will be.
I carry on my heavy heart.
But it won't explode no more.
No bomb.
I am keeping it under check.
I am teaching it how to behave
Symbiotic - we both learn

Look at things with a fresh eye
Cooled down: not tormented inside
And if I have to speak up, I will.
And if we have to die, we will, indeed
But what if we have to bloom, thrive,
grow up (another time)
What if there was more to life?

The other side - saying ye come, come ye
You have to see the dark in the sun, the sun shining
in every trap
The other side - calm down, let's not panic
calm down - no use in crying

I am carrying my heavy heart -maybe it will never get lighter,
been living for too long with that.
But he won't wreck my life
My heavy heart will rise