You don't want to die
But you don't want to breathe
You pop another one so you don't have to think
Lets mix it with a drink
You don't know what's happened
All you know right now
Is that you don't want to feel
Your mind is on a ride that's broken with no end
Your thoughts are full of negativity and your messages wont send
You keep pushing through another day
Hoping it gets better
Hiding what your mind created behind a smile
Being polite
Thank you
Yes ma'am, no ma'am
But **** its been a while
Its been a while since I felt good
Even with love in the air
I'm nothing but scared and I don't know why

He seems like the right guy
You keep hitting all the buttons and getting no outcome

Its not working so maybe I'll hit the big red one
So something but and don't regret it
But my mind wont work that way
And it wont let me forget it
I'm going crazy
I'm going insane
What am I crying for when I'm to blame?

How does this world keep moving
when someone is falling and bruising
I can beg and beg you to please don't do this
Don't make my mind any worse than it already is
Don't make me want to stop being who I am
And right now I'm alive
I've got nothing to live for
My head has taken over and right now there isn't much
I do what I can
I help and I help but I cant help myself
I'm begging and begging
Please let me out
I'm destroying what I fought for and I'm plummeting fast
I don't know what to do
And I don't know if I can last
Last another day feeling this way
Or lasting one more night and not feeing the pain
My minds a battlefield
Everything is exploding
But what can I do I just cant keep coping?