too many words
not enough structure
one too many syllables
and it all falls apart

sounds so good in my mind
but i stutter when i speak
don't listen to my words
know my heart

i want it to be perfect
to move you
but i just can't
i've tried

i write
and i write
and i write
and i write

but nothing
comes out
that bears any
significance

just stringing
you all along
my thoughts are
dissonant

keep fighting a battle
but how?
i thought i was done
but i'm not i guess

don't know what is hurting me
i'm just too afraid
to know if it might actually be me
i'm a mess