have you ever just wanted to drown
in the emotions you're choking on anyway
everywhere you turn there's a complication
you can't just abandon life
but you don't want to face
all of the issues around you
don't feel the need to experience all of that pain
but it's not a choice
you get to make
to the misery
you must subjugate
in this moment
this life
you are its slave
they ache
for your failure
and its your tears that they crave
bitter salt for a bitter world
is it black or white
can you be wrong and right
so confused and gray
where ever one must choose a side
you linger
you sway
either choice could do you in
that's why you're afraid
to make up your mind
to just be let down
it doesn't matter anyway
we're all just blips
in the history of earth
another person with opinions
another corpse rotting in a grave
years from now
none of this will matter
no one will care what you did
much less about you
they won't even remember your name
but still it hurts to exist
in this moment
considering all of the mistakes
you are bound to make