Three Words

sometimes people ask me
are you even alive
and i say
wow that wasn’t kind
but i assure you
i’m living
i’m livid and i’ve lived a lit life

i’ve gotten my heart broken a few times
but what doesn’t **** you makes you
stronger right ?
i was wrong but i got smarter

cause if you break a bone it doesn’t grow back denser
if you break a toe
you won’t be able to clench it
but if you break a heart
it knows not to beat faster
next time

like that time you saw me on the street
holding hands
like we used to that week
i’m living
i’m livid
i’m living a life you once lived too
i’m sorry i’m not the bleach on your shoe
im sorry i’m not your ***** and your boo
but i’m living
what doesn’t **** you makes you smarter
what didn’t **** me made me faster
what didn’t **** me made me have a face of plaster

and maybe that’s why you ask? are you even alive
well i’ll tell you one more time
i don’t smile
but i also don’t cry
i won’t reconcile
and you won’t ask why

but i’m alive
you just want to see
where i am
where i’ll be
this hurts me too
it isn’t easy
but it’s what has to be done
i can’t hurt her too

what about me?
where was that mentality
when you held my heart
lock and key
i don’t really remember
my hearts made my memory a little bit rocky
but i’m still alive
so don’t get too cocky


i still care about you
tell that to the trial
tell that to my dad too

there are three words
i used to say to you
now there is one of us
but then there were two
there are three words
and they aren’t i love you