I know that you must think That there is no way I could care as much as you Perhaps you think With your long brown hair That you were here first.
I told him today that I'd ******* if you weren't so weird about it.
We probably have more in common than just him.
It's impossible For me to ignore your presence I'll never forget the night You came bounding up the stairs And danced right near me Your hair swinging long I wonder how it is that you see me I wonder how it is that you view us.
He stood along the wall Aware of you Aware of me Lifting his gaze up and meeting my eyes Like he'd lost me a thousand and one times And never wanted to own up to it. I looked back And then away.
It doesn't really matter I don't want to compete with someone I don't know And I don't know that I need to know you Making it clear with an unpronounced Quiet threat That I'm the enemy.
I'm the big dog on campus I don't know that I'll ever need to Announce that your way But can't you see little girl My bark isn't just the loudest It echoes the longest.
I worry that the public Might think that I don't know That I'm over here being fooled But I dress in head to toe black lace Like I'm some kind of **** widow Purchasing tickets Making plans I strive to move up and out Though my own fears Bulldoze me the most.
I wonder if you see me in your mind Or if you cry about me the way I do you Do you fear that he speaks to me the same way Have you looked through his phone Do you look at me occasionally Do you do what you can to feel stable In whatever This messy and unpronounced Love triangle is?
Just because you were here first Just because you've known him for longer Just because you went to the same school Or worked on the same sets
Doesn't mean you love him better than I do.
But then again
I was never interested in competing with you anyway.