I lost three people that day    
Three parts of me
Two well I guess three I'll never see          
The best part of myself
at the time hated
A third of my life I told myself
I wasted
   Hard to cope
Relying on parts of the brain that don't work
  over and over
the blame ,you and me
sit on a merry go round
leaping off
I'm  about to be sick
Confused,dizzy
in a whirlwind of memories
lost in moments I can't explain.
I can't point the finger at either of us.
How'd I get so lucky.
How'd knowing each other a few months
Turn into a celebration at coaches down on third street.
In love.
A team.
So in sync our presence felt like one.
They'll never have me
because getting rid of you
is the same as me to
When I told you
you'll never get me
You did and still do
The other two
my will and my sanity      
no drive left for life
I don't even walk
barely crawl.
I dont care about a love like that anymore
and the one thing that's ******* driving me mad.
My worst fear is actually coming true
  I'm gonna die alone with you.