All she ever wanted was control. She stood at the bathroom mirror And as she stared at her reflection She saw her fingers pick up the scissors And chop her hair They fell in little Tufts around her. She kept cutting She told herself it was better than cutting her skin She decided it wasn't enough She wanted more So she picked up a razor and buzzed of any hair that was still part of her head She couldn't clearly see the back of her head And as she moved stretching she nicked herself Blood trickled down her neck and she wondered how did she get here. It's not that she didn't try She had tried But they wouldn't believe her They wouldn't believe her when she said She woke up sad That she felt different Empty, detatched That her insides ached ached in a way that no injury could. Somehow now her head felt lighter without all that hair. Somehow she felt better Even if for just a while.