i didn’t know you were gone
till i saw that you just weren’t there
i didn’t know you couldn’t stay
so i blamed you for my despair
for the overwhelming blue
that settled over my life
i missed you so much
when you weren’t by my side
and i still miss you
when i hear your name in someone else’s conversation
even if it’s not really about you
it fits into the version of events i’ve created
where you’re coming home
with a smile and time to waste
that you got caught up at the office
and just running a little late
or something or another
just that you’ll come back to me
i know this is not possible
but i dream selfishly
and i’m not mad anymore
i’ve grown to understand
this isn’t something you could control
under any circumstance
but like i said
i am fading in your absence
if you can’t come to me
i’ll close the distance
god drew the line that keeps us apart
i’ll erase it without a second thought
anything that put me next to you
is going to have be my best shot
but this isn’t right
you’d never approve
how do i please myself
without disappointing you