Why do I need to reality check
My dad put it clear: I never think with my head
Laid in my bed think about the words we said
Scraping for answers to appease the void within
This void that I dig...

I tried to cope maybe that's it
But coping with me - it can be the hardest thing!
It wasn't a problem but slowly it grew
I miss you baby but I don't really know what to do
I break slowly without you

Can we swim the waves that life creates, hand in hand
If I cannot do it with you, then I give up
Desperate Winehouse lady wandering the town
I wonder can we do it - course we can
Maybe I am hungry for you
But I'm disordered too

I start concocting strange kinds of tales
You can't feel them you can't grab them but they do leave a trace
To feel you pull away it feels like hell
A million questions dropped by the bully in my head
I still haven't solved the mist on myself
I love you so dearly but every now and then
I get love sick again...
(I just don't want to change)