I hold on to everything  
Yet I can't  seem to let anything  go
Broken shards  of
memories  
that  mock me
And fight my mind.

At night  these  thoughts,
destroy  me and take over
my soul.
And suddenly,
I find myself
Quiet  and all alone!

"It's  ok to me everything,
Yes,every  single thought"
they say.
But how will that  help when these,
Troubling  emotions,
Won't  go away!

So here I am  again
at night,
Afraid  of myself ,afraid  of the  light
And suddenly,I  find myself,
Quiet  
And out of control.

I feel like a lonely  star
in the sky.
In this life I  once
felt hope, but
It became difficult  to
repair  from the troubling  emotions !

My smile hides  my tears,
and you only  know
My cover!
I just  want  something
better,
To not feel  this  terror.

I get broken each day,
Keeping  these
emotions  in my  core,
I wish I'd  find
Myself  very  soon

I won't  practise  
my smiles  in the  
mirror  or make
My fake smiles more clear,
I'm  tired  of living
behind the mask with these Troubling  Emotions !