I couldn't bring myself to tell you this. It's selfish of me to wish you missed me now. to wish you’d call me at five in the morning asking if we could talk for a while. I don’t want to ruin you this way. How egotistical of me to wish for weakness to destroy you because you let me, destroy you because you're willing. And to think I would allow myself to do so not because I still love you, only because I can.