A deal with the devil
Thats what i signed tonight
I messed up big time
Now it's nothing so bad
But your really not gonna like
When you look on the inside
I can smile
And play pretend
Act like i never took more drugs
Act like i never ***** up
But I sit and i write
Every day, every night
Tryna find just one peice
Of my life, that went right
Guess it's not meant to be
I'm just too ****** you see
Raised around lies
Cheatings pride
Know no faith
Fell from grace
And ill never ever get back up
I'm sorry
You deserve better than me
I just hurt you
And disappoint you
I never mean too
Its just everyone I love becomes ******
Everything I touch turns to rust
And every time it starts to go right it always backfires
Im aware of my life's problems
Im aware that I haven't felt since before I met you...
I'm so scared of loosing you so I keep **** away from you but then it kills me, but the **** i tell you you don't like or when im ready to tell you its like you don't wanna hear it and i know you say i can talk to you and **** but like you always loose your rag over the stupid **** and honestly im just loosing my head all the time.
It's not your problem
I'm aware its mine
But I can't continue
To hate my fear of loosing you
Makes me want too
Just so then its less painfull for me
I'm undeniably in love with you
That ill swear on god hell and the universe
May they all fall into a black hole if im lying