it’s like a never ending maze. & maybe i **** at making the right choices, maybe i am a ******* *****-up that does things in heats of moments completely neglecting logic. maybe i am still haunted by my past, running rampant because i so badly want to escape that person, those feelings.
trying to stay sane is a full time job that does not pay enough.
my attempts to find a love is near impossible.
i will never be good enough, will i?
i am but a girl, traumatized by disadvantages that stole my innocence way too early.
it’s hard explaining why you’re ****** up in the head while trying to outrun the demons that drag you back into hell.
so i close my eyes,
i close my heart,
i close my mind.
i was always the victim.
i always stayed silent.
i never fought because i could never win.
i no longer fight because i will never win.