do you remember the soft haze of childhood happiness?
do you remember the charcoal darkening it's edges?
as clumsy, desperate hands took your innocence?
as graceless fervent kisses caused you thrill and revulsion
of hurting  just so they wouldn't hurt all alone?

can you remember?
the darkness behind that locked door?
do remember?
all the things you forgot on purpose?
because how can someone so dear to you hurt you so?

do you remember ?
lying to yourself until those lies became the truth?