There is a heat that comes A sharp short pain Usually followed by a coming of tears.
I drank wine with a girlfriend tonight And talked incessantly about you I went on a date earlier today I open myself up, I'm opening.
I'm so good at this at times Until the reminder of how in love with you I am Comes back like a swing set of swords And I realize with immense pain That you seem to do everything you can To avoid feeling real love For me.
I recycle in my head The ways that you did or didn't Like how you tried to put your arm around me Wiping away my tears When we are together everything else seems to disappear Don't you feel it Don't you feel it too?
Loving you has been and always seems to be Filled with pain I sit in my silence In order to try and establish Not needing or wanting you so much But also because I need to see You, try.
I know you will But I wonder if I make myself new for you If I could just be that quantity you desire You seemed somewhere along the way To decide that you don't mind Sharing me So I do my best to lean into that I do my best.
This relationship with you Has been one of the biggest challenges of my life so far And so I stand strong as you said But not because you said to
But because I'm whole and full And beautiful and so **** Enough in myself To do it.