I've written so much tortured poetry
Using it in hopes of communicating
What I couldn't before.

Sometimes I think I'm in love with the idea of how I want
Someone to love me
And see me.

I long to be seen as real
All still wanting to be fetishized
Glorified, worshipped
Told I'm the one and only
All still while gagging me
And barking orders
Wanting
Just I.