this week
life was hard

I fell again

broke my happy bone
became an
emotional invalid

falling
into an
invisible
hole

I was here
close to you
near to you

but you did
not see me

the deer in
your headlights

I wanted
you to hit me
make me feel
something

but I avoided
you again

you missed me
but I was already
gone anyway

unaware of
what you felt
when you missed me

this week was hard

I fell into a shell
and pretended to
be a rock

maybe when you
are bored you will

kick me