What would I do if I weren't afraid? I would tell you that I like you. Well that wouldn't be entirely accurate. I would tell you that every time I see you, my heart beats faster. I would tell you that I get butterflies at the mention of your name. I would tell you that I go out of my way to let you know just how special you are because you are, so. *******. special, to me. I would tell you that I replay our conversations in my head like, all the time. I would say just how having you in my life makes my days that much brighter. I would tell you that ever since I met you, I smile a lot more than I used to. I would tell you that talking to you literally makes my entire day, and when you look at me I swear I can't breathe. I would tell you that every time I walk into a room I automatically look for you first. I would tell you that a lot of people call my name, but you are the only person who can make it sound so **** special. I would tell you that you are not mine, but sometimes I pretend you wish you were. I would tell you that I want your heart because you stole mine. If I wasn't afraid, I would tell you that seeing you with someone else is something that I don't want to see, or imagine because truth is…I'm crazy about you. But that's just it, it's crazy because I will never not be afraid because saying any of this ruins what we have.
What I tell myself is, I'd rather have you as a friend only, if It meant losing you completely.