What would I do if I weren't afraid?
I would tell you that I like you.
Well that wouldn't be entirely accurate.
I would tell you that every time I see you, my heart beats faster.
I would tell you that I get butterflies at the mention of your name.
I would tell you that I go out of my way to let you know just how special you are because you are, so. *******. special, to me.
I would tell you that I replay our conversations in my head like, all the time.
I would say just how having you in my life makes my days that much brighter.
I would tell you that ever since I met you, I smile a lot more than I used to.
I would tell you that talking to you literally makes my entire day, and when you look at me I swear I can't breathe.
I would tell you that every time I walk into a room I automatically look for you first.
I would tell you that a lot of people call my name, but you are the only person who can make it sound so **** special.
I would tell you that you are not mine, but sometimes I pretend you wish you were.
I would tell you that I want your heart because you stole mine.
If I wasn't afraid, I would tell you that seeing you with someone else is something that I don't want to see, or imagine because truth is…I'm crazy about you. But that's just it, it's crazy because I will never not be afraid because saying any of this ruins what we have.

What I tell myself is, I'd rather have you as a friend only, if It meant losing you completely.

I tell myself, this is how it has to be...

And I tell myself…I'm okay with it.