A buzzing conundrum Hiding among the pane of glass Large and striped Sending shivers down my spine Someone please come exterminate them.
It's very cold in Chicago now The bugs and the snow In mid November remind me why I gotta go.
I make more coffee And use two different cups It's time to get dressed but I don't want to get stung.
You go back and forth between us Like we too, hide and buzz Among the pane of your windowsill I wait patiently in my pain to be exterminated Or stung.
Shaking off the feeling Of the image the tarot card reader read for me A man stabbed with ten swords That's the place I've been living in With all of this And I'm not yet sure How to not wait How to not hurt How to not expect stings.
You are gone now So is my other lover Home, abroad for the holiday I'm glad. It's almost like I've got Chicago to myself again.
It's been harder for me to want to pick up the pace To run around with gumption each day Someone I guess you could call an old friend Messaged me after the event last night And told me to keep being me.
Everything can change in an instant I close my eyes, trying to let go and shake it Out and up I stay because I choose to.
Fighting off that aching feeling Of what felt like healing kisses and words You have such a hard time holding my gaze When I fill the cup up with words Your physical sensuality and your ***** talk Does all the work.
I haven't been as into it lately--you're right. Existing and breathing and fighting To want to mean so much You've got plans right after me To see her.
Maybe I can sense it, feel it The idea of this other girl in the room I tease that it's me watching How I'd get involved We'd dismiss her at the end Laying in bed together we finish the words Of one another's fantasizes Like it's some kind of exercise I check the love I feel for you I check it hard and at the door I just don't know