I need to get back, back to yesterday, back to before, back to when I remember.
When I remember what it was like to feel calm,
Even when my mind was filled with overloading memories.
I need to go back to when a smile felt real and wasn't an expectation.
Back to when I look at the world for new opportunities, not for the ensuing disappointment that is bound to happen.
I need to remember, when loving myself wasn't a chore and an impossible task, but a hobby because it is so easy to do.
I need to remember that there is always light at the end of the tunnel,
And I need to go back to the day I would take a step forward without going two steps back right after.
I need to remember my smile is pure and my will is strong.
One day, will I remember?