Ive been drowning in your psychological and addiction fueled downfall for long enough
Leaving you was one thing but watching you deteriorate was like slowly watching and accepting quicksand shall soon smother my last breath
Find yourself my dear.. please
Not for me for I am no longer the man you once married
And I’m ok with that
Do it for yourself
Do it despite I plan on never seeing your eyes again regardless
Do it for your father can finally sleep
Do it because it’s what Cali bird would of wanted
Fault and all, you were special Amber
The painfullest truth for me was,,
I new I had to leave you after all that transpired yet never in a million years did I imagine my absence along would rip you apart so horrifically  and on so many levels
No matter how bad you wronged me, nothing equates to the destruction that comes with losing ones own mind
I, along with many many more people would give anything to help you get better my dear
Yet I know deep in my heart that the woman I once married died long ago