in younger years i remember trying so hard to gain the affection of the opposite *** and i'm not really sure why because well
in middle school there was this girl named dezarae and everyone loved her because she was thin and wore make up and her hair was always nice just like her clothes that accentuated her blossoming *******
i think there was a boy named kyle or something similar to that i'm not sure anymore but he was always around her as well as me since i guess dezarae considered me her best friend and at first i liked kyle but then i liked her
it was around that time that i met this other girl named amber who wore glasses and had long hair that didn't always look nice and her clothes weren't the best just like her teeth but i remember she was as thin as a twig and just as flatchested as i was
we became the best of friends and i felt equal in her company my feelings for her grew when we would spend friday nights together at each others house depending on what week it was
but i remember her and i speaking one day gossiping about everyone at school like dezarae and i don't know why but i lied when amber asked me "well i heard dezarae was bisexual she likes girls and boys isn't that disgusting?" i replied with "oh gosh what that is just so gross"
i was so confused why was it so wrong to like someone who was just the same as you are because i liked amber in a way that i should have liked a boy.