You know what ***** the most is knowing that some day he will give a girl the chance I wish I had. I wasn't worth it but some totally uninteresting girl who wears American eagle and who is probably a nursing assistant with a kid from a previous relationship will be. She will be prettier than me in the traditional sense but there's nothing unique about her. She won't write or paint or play an instrument but she will make an excellent wife. I bet her name would be something like Marissa. Yuck.