I cannot place my finger on it
I cannot yet speak the truth
Instead I'll lay the baseline to it
And explain the concept of my youth

As a little boy, fear lead supreme
It held me back from achieving my goal
But now fear is my go-to scheme
By accepting this I gain control

Fear used to make me fight or run
I'd be volatile yet full of drive
But now I channel this loaded gun
And use it to help me survive

This energy comes and sharpens my view
I can focus completely on the task to be done
But before the use of fear sounds new
Let's return to where i begun

Fear, energy, focus and speed
The four main traits of my fixation
Have lead to illness, stress and ****
Because the word is ...
Procrastination