How do you feel right now
In love? Ecstatic?  Hungry ? Sorrowful ?
Whatever it is , it's nothing compared to what I'm feeling
I feel hopeless
I don't feel like I'm alive
I feel like I'm just sitting through life to fill this concept of time
Patiently but eagerly wait for death
Is this how it should be ?
I feel like it could all be different
If only I could get rid of this self-doubt
Leave behind all my fears
Learn to love myself
But where do I start ?