I know we fight (a lot) I call you horrible things that I rarely mean and you take them in, your thick skin repels them (except when it doesn't) (because sometimes it doesnβt, I'm sure)
and yes you hurt me too sometimes without even trying I envy how easily some things come to you things I can't seem to grasp I feel inferior and sometimes you try and you taunt and jeer and jab and unlike you my skin is thin and penetrable
but I'm writing this because you're the only one I have I realized that at dinner last night when the tension in the air made my lip curl like it reeked and I felt hatred prickling my skin leeching out like steam
so when the day comes and our world has fallen around us (hasn't it already?) the only one I will reach for to pull to the surface with me through the crumbling fragments of false stability and weak promises to gasp for a breath of that weightless type of air I ache to someday reach is you