I lay in a bed of sighs and give in
my pain balled up in my throat
taunting my eyes into tears
Apathy sets in as I watch the hours pass
Christmas specials screaming of cheer
as I look on faithless
unable to give or forgive myself
for the time wasted feeling this grim
As my soul growls and turns
begging for a smile that was meant
A deep hunger strengthens
When did I become this?
How did this happen?
What will it take to extract the thorn?
I watch the symptoms spread into the ones
I love
As I selfishly plunge into the abyss of forlorn