a teenage bedroom above the estate agents
across from the Synagogue
               on Beehive Lane, Gants Hill...

either playing Age of Empires II,
or the Sims (briefly) -
becoming freaked out by the wormhole
effect of being ****** into
a Hindu belief in reincarnation
(limited no. of people)
when i made the Sim play
the computer in the game...
wait... i'm playing the computer...
**** that...
and the walls lined with
posters of bands... all the walls,
infringing on the space
on the ceiling...
          and a poster with all the dog
breeds...
  well... what can i say...
   my siblings were dogs,
my would-be brothers and sisters...
were dogs...
      for the love of life after
owning a Doberman:
      i dream of somehow owning a
rottweiler...
               but what i really should
have had, three posters,
of 1980s music pin-ups...
      joan jett...
       susanna hoffs...
                          marie fredriksson;
well... if that Hindu stuff is
still in play...
   i want my future reincarnated self
to remember this, current self,
and have a teenage room
   with these three pin-ups on the wall
somewhere...
   along with... you know...
the usual, 1990s "nostalgia" bonanza.