I used to say ‘don’t you dare.’ Now I say ‘please, please, Don’t leave. Just hold me, let’s pretend.’ But I could not, The illusion's end.
You could not, Give up your little attempt, Your pathetic pretense To be the man You think you want to be. I was not, Weak-willed enough To fit in with your little game A pretty play-thing The role I'd played.
Unexplained It grew like a parasite. Til one day I paralysed it But it remains Lodged in tunnels, Inside my brain When my guard is down It eats away
You presented a mixed array Of sincerity, lies and games, 'You're the one leaving, I won't change.' Lying in those sheets, Where others lay.
It tore me apart, That night, That by nature I was helplessly strong, I was driven away When my protector Punctured my inflated heart.
I did not arm myself With reasons, dignity. Regretfully I let it Eat away, Always wishing, I could lower myself, To play that stage.