Sometimes I turn my phone off Because I don't want to be near the waiting I've found myself feeling tired Hibernating away as the leaves begin to fall Hoping that tomorrow I'll have a bit more of a kick in my step.
You seem worn down and drained Letting yourself have me on my bed You kiss me hard and with such emotion Like you've been waiting a long time For those wannabe Barbie kisses.
I was once in love with the purity that I thought was here Sometimes I'll look through the cracks Feeling as though it's all been gone There is a restless boyhood to you But it felt so good to stand on the other side of the party And catch your eye In my white long wig And holographic pants You pulled down around my ankles.
We didn't even take all our clothes off You speak to me as I gasp for air Knowing me in a way now That most do not.
I know we both felt it the moment we met I remember the baseball cap I wore How I sat across from you I knew it the moment I first heard your name And couldn't find a single picture of you On the internet Yet.
I don't think we will be together ultimately But I value the time we have now As you become more comfortable with Kind pet names I watch you pull away from my face caresses Almost as if my love You fear it could sting you It's palpable and effervescent I know you know how much fun I can be Buying you any little thing Taking care of you how I can I want to be so successful so that I don't have to worry.
I said at the beginning to myself That I'd never been with a cinematographer before You make time for me I make time for you I seem to always be leaving.
You said You don't want to foster jealousy I wish there was a world within which You would look at me And decide it was just me you wanted
But you're too caught up in fearing What you might miss out on While all at once Keeping me.