The aftermath of betrayal

I was hoping this was a nightmare
When my alarm went off, so did I
I jumped and grabbed my chest
With an ache in my heart,
and a pain on my side
As I remember the night before
Bits and pieces going back into place
Words and feelings I cannot erase
I would go find the bottle-
But I am out of chase
And cannot handle
any more bitterness today
I feel so betrayed

I hear my friends outside-
Everyone going on with their lives
While I am struggling to keep up with mine
I grab the side of the mattress
And push you aside
Your snores echo in the room
Just like my little cries
Crawling out of bed-
Got to greet the day
But I ignored the sun
I feel so betrayed.

And when you awake,
How am I supposed to smile at you?
How will this be the same?
How am I to do what lovers do?
Because in my chest theres a cavity
There lays a hallow heavy space
This space knows no limit, or gravity
A space where trust used to lay
And nothing to take its place
I feel so ******* betrayed