please hold me.
show me summer within your breath.
I need to touch you,
for I have watched a thousand miles go by.

but you do not need me to hold you.
as you live an eternal summer with her.
never will your nerves beg for my skin
while you cannot drive to me.

flute solos sing in my mind.
shirts scream at me in the store.
smoke seems to illustrate your lips.
sarcasm begs to break my heart.

hurl knives at my stomach and
allow them to disappear into my thigh and chest.
clasp my hand and smash a mirror
watch as I devour the shards.

paranoia is embodied by her height.
egotism lies and I am superior.
cancer corrects and I fall apart.
you don't love me the way you love her.

please don't abandon her
if you are leaving spring.
but please I beg of you
don't abandon me more.