i yawned so hard i cried
tears disappear into the cracks in my skin
my hands sting from dryness
and my lips break

my fingernails are ragged
and the blankets are checkered
one square for every time
i forgot what it meant to be human

and cancer runs in my family
given to me without my consent
i'm forced to follow its rules
if it makes me play along

a cruel game where no one wins
except the wind
it scatters me across the galaxy
i'll be a astronaut
no need for a helmet

the stars exist for excuses
reasons beyond explanation
why this happened the way it did
why i failed, why i lost, why he died, why she lived
justice is a fairytale
and the poor maiden is a myth

my mind is the only thing that matters
except my looks control me
and even if i have words of gold
my face will dictate how they are said
and what they mean

i'll fail math class
because x doesn't equal perfection
and the ***** only goes downhill

and the crying continues
long past the yawns.