i have been
(and probably always will be)
obsessed
with
dying
this not to say i want to die
i don't want to die
but i will
someday
i will die
my family will die
my pets will die
my friends will die
every living being i have encountered
will die
death is inevitable
and that's not necessarily bad
death is the reason i live
i live because there's a definite end point
i live to fill all the spaces in between
i live because i don't have forever
so maybe that's why it's stuck on my mind
it's as though being hyper-aware of my mortality
makes me want to live even more