Hi, This is me I'm lost Not literally But also not “not literally “
I don’t know how to explain I've always been lost So “always” that now I’ve stopped waiting to be found
What do you do when being home doesn’t feel at home being alone is no where close to peace and being seen is seen as trouble
When you see the clattering teeth behind every smile; The evil red behind every eye and the ***** in every handshake…
You STOP! You stop soliciting You stop You want no more You’ve had enough But instead of stopping them YOU stop
Because thats what you’ve always been taught
Everyday you ask You ask yourself If everything thats happening around you is fair The answer? You know its NO But you convince yourself that you don’t know
Even after all that you have seen
When you were ahead of everyone else in the race and no one could match your pace Instead of letting you win they asked you to stop
Or like they said “Wait “ for the ones behind Don’t lead , Always follow Because thats what it means To be“Kind”
You wait For someone else to do the same for you To have your back To push you To the the finish line
But in vain You were always the last You had to be After all, thats humanity
Although very cliche I will still use this phrase here You scream on the top of your lungs but no one can hear
You’ve forgotten your own sound the world’s hidden from your rhythm You’ve learnt to talk in whispers For having a voice is forbidden
You’re burning from your own heat Not rage just heat From the fever that is When you realize Thats the only warmth you’ve ever felt
But why? What does this mean to them you ask Why do they keep you behind what is going on in their mind Why can you not be one of a kind
Why is it that you are always last Though better than the others You’re still an outcast beaten and harassed
You don’t know Maybe you’ll never know But thats what you will have to live with You cannot go
You’ll have to lay Right here Stone cold With nothing to hold.