i can't argue without tears streaming down my face
i can't stand in a crowd without my hands shaking
i can't look at something even slightly sad without my heart breaking
i can't look in the mirror without hating everything
i can't speak my mind without feeling like i ruined something
i can't think of the future without my anxiety haunting me
i can't go to bed without it being hard to fall asleep
i can't stand up for myself without my voice shaking
i can't speak to you without my heart racing
i can't be me without being afraid you won't like me
and i can't help but think you won't really want me