i hold in my emotions
this is who i am
i hold them all in
until it's impossible not to cry
i think that's why i'm so angry all the time
at everyone and everything
it's more like i'm mad at myself
for holding it all in
and not letting it out
and when i cry
i cry hard
a whole ocean flows out of me
mixing with the water in the shower
it hurts so much
i cannot stand
and i fall to my knees
surrendering to the pain
my whole body shakes
from the earthquake inside of my heart
something shifts
and the whole thing explodes
and i'm left picking my own self up off the floor
no one else is around
my heart is a ghost town
no one comes in
no one comes out
i'm stuck here
and it's the same cycle
over and over again
people hurt me
and i just hold it in
until the dam breaks inside of me again
and this hurricane destroys me
and who would want to love a storm?