i am fine. another lie! you ask me how i’m doing, but fine is all i say. i don’t realize my struggle i don’t realize my pain i let these words bury i let these feelings hide away. i’ve never been “fine” my emotions have been stronger. i’ve cried and felt depressed, i’ve laughed until i couldn’t breathe, i’ve fell in love and out of it too. it’s mysterious how i can brush it off tell a lie to hide it more, nobody realizes, nobody notices, except me. i can not recognize this pain until it’s too late. lying does me no good, when all i am doing, is lying to myself.