I feel a little bit of a sense Of feeling lost As the bright light that feels like a summer heat In the midst of October Glistens and hits my windows Reminding me it's almost time to leave again.
Sometimes it feels like it is never enough Our palms hold and touch Your eyes absorb me all in Like ice aflame There is no denying our connection As much as I'd like to make it small Smaller.
I expand my limbs Making big strokes on the internet Hoping and looking for some kind of sense of self I drink up coffee, ginger shots Text another man You leave and always come back.
I know you fear the future The present is the biggest contender yet My body aches from the late nights Where I get little sleep these days But my lovers give me lots of touching Lots of loving.
You walk along the ring of fire Words drip and struggle to release from you I'm here with open arms I reassure you Though I know and feel our time is limited Do you ever feel that in your heart Does it cause you pain like it does me?
You mentioned that I was cuter than your other lover I told you I'm a good partner Steering you towards a calm peace I think of my time in Philadelphia I think of all the different lives I lead Preparing, drifting, claiming a present feeling.
Coffee. Ginger shot. Water. Left over pizza. Watching edits. Therapy. Gratitude.