It's not easy for me to say
Every since you went away
Things have changed around here

I am not the same
I wish I had tried harder
I know that that's not it
That's what I say to myself when I hurt

You left on your own accord
I wish I could have saved you from it all
Save you from what she did to you
You deserved much better

Back then I called out for you
No answer I came
I had to assume the worst
I had to trust your words

"I can't do this anymore"
I didn't want you to let go because of how toxic she was
I wish I could have reached out and saved you
Saved you from her

"I'm going to **** myself"
Those were your last words
Sometimes I ask myself if I could have saved you
Should I have confronted her?

I know you don't think so
I know that I couldn't have done more
We weren't that open with other information
There was no one for me to call
Yet I can't help the doubts that claw at my heels

I dropped into a dark place after you left
I knew I had to stop trying to save everyone
I won't ever regret reaching out to all those people
My efforts mainly payed off
Starting with small smiles to laughter

I just wished that I could have done the same for you