Unsettled and fazed
Slow speaking and deep thinking
Hands numb but heart beating
Eyes quiver from a drop of not knowing

And it’s not like I haven’t been listening it’s just I haven’t been asking...
Now that I am it is me who needs the fire to clean me from what my mind is portraying..

He told me he had *** after the kiss and now I can’t move ... even though I speak the words are like smoke and vanish fast we speak and go back inside but I wanted to run but where? Where would I go ?

He tells me I can’t get it like that but I don’t believe him like how can you tell me the truth when u didn’t tell me the truth before, and now I’m looking at my mirror like I don’t know who I am 4 days after ...like now to be exact,
I find myself with headache *** I’ve been thinking so much and tomo is the big day Tomo I shall know if you never prayed before I’m asking for it..
For am a stranger to heaven knocking on the door....
I know I should of never been where I was
I still don’t know where I am.