I’ve been here
All night
I’ve been here
All day
The music screams
And the lovers around me
Smile
But I
I am alone
Moving my energy
Toward
Eliminating
The contempt that you poured
Into me

I’m going to backtrack
Again
Smile
Try to say the right words
So you won’t leave
Although I know
In the deepest part of
My heart
That it’s me
Who should be leaving

Why I can’t
Or won’t
Is still a shadowy question
I haven’t found
Courage
To answer

How I reduce myself
For your approval
How my self worth
Has been tangled up in
You
How I let go
Of a me
I thought I knew so well

I suppose it’s because
Without you
I’d be sitting here
Alone
All the lovers around me
Without hope

And hope
I now see
Is how I keep myself
From drowning