My hair grows down my neck
I wake up in the morning
Thinking maybe I'll say and show less on the internet
My eyes close and think of my full length mirror
Or that vintage ***** clothes hamper
And how I opened up my home
Selling it all away.


I tell my therapist I'm nervous 'bout leavin'
Don't wanna just go to go
Singing in my own microphone
I dream of not being far and ahead enough.

Prioritizing self care
I paint pictures inside of myself
I used to focus so much on my looks
My face and my soul feeling
Eons old.

My ex is deep in love, he got a baby
He got a baby
But didn't wanna have no baby
No, not with me
I was too much his baby
Already.

I wonder and examine
The little bit of pain I bite into
I say out loud today
That love with Alex all coated in pain
It got me cryin' silently
Ain't nothing quite like
Lovin' someone who don't wanna love you.

I laid underneath your body
Begged you let's be sweet and rough
All at once
While you neglect me
You reach, but only in your reach
Do I see how much of you is missing.

Nursing you, loving you
There was a time where you were someone else
Deep in my heart and in my mind.

I see you and this differently now
I know you want me
Hard kisses and those moments
Where I thought it was more pure
Than it actually is.