Sometimes I
Kinda wish he'd
Push it just a
Little farther
Test me
Let it happen
Somehow
Without immediate
Knowledge
So I have no choice
But to take it
Because maybe
Then I won't
Be reminded of the past
That still haunts me
It nearly breaks
My heart because
I can't do to him
What I should be able to
I can't please him
And we can't please
Each other simultaneously
And I wish I could
At least try
Sometimes he
Tempts me
Brings a passion
Out of me
That I feel in the pit of me
I wish I could
Make it okay
Attempt it
Have a try with him
But there's a hesitant
Fear controlling me
There's to much
Pressure
Too much nightmarish memories.

I'm sorry